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Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Blibbity Blooh Blah!

Felt inspired to write a little something. Just a rambling, if you will. Today is Valentine's Day. It was a really good day, I must say.

I must admit I was feeling rather down about being single today. But the tide quickly turned, and good things started happening to me.

Monday, February 5, 2018

Dealing with death and loss?

Well someone else died. A close friend of our family. She was around a lot when I was growing up. My good friend, it was his Mom. She passed away a few days ago.

It seems like everyone keeps dying. I had two people die a few months ago too. I don't know how to deal with all the death. It's hard.

As time goes on, more people are going to pass, it's inevitable. I guess I have to find ways to deal with it. It really affects me deeply.

People I've known for years, or my whole life. Just gone like that, in an instant. I guess that's life. It doesn't make it easier though. 

Sunday, January 28, 2018

The sweet tea song

I was messing around with my YouTube channel and I made the sweet tea song. It's just me singing about how I love making sweet tea, as I'm waiting for my kettle to brew.

Funny stuff. Not sure if everyone else will think it's funny but I had fun anyway. I've been feeling super tired.

Been sleeping more than usual. Maybe it's the cold weather. Also have been kind of depressed. Oh well, I guess that's life.

The weather here is gloomy and cold. I can't wait until spring. It's not too far off! 

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Blogging..break from YouTube :)

I'm "sort of" taking a break from YouTube. I say sort of because, well, I can't really stop YouTube I'm addicted. But I'm mostly laying off of working on my channel and making videos. For now.

I am going to be blogging more. I want to focus more on my blog right now and all that. YouTube and blogging kind of go hand in hand for me.

They are like a great tag-team duo. They compliment each other. My blog is a little more therapeutic maybe..because of the simple fact that it's easier for me to express thoughts in writing.

Sometimes it's hard for me to "fully" open up on video. It's more personal already you know. People watching you and whatnot.

On another note...I have been trying to deal with my mother's death for the last few months. It's been VERY hard.

Some days I hardly do anything. It's really hard for me to talk about her passing. I don't know how to process it or fully deal with it. It's so hard to face.

It doesn't even seem a dream actually. Maybe someday I'll be able to face it..but for now, I'm honestly still in shock, even after a few months.

I'm officially an orphan now. And yes, losing both parents at ANY age means you're an orphan. I don't know how to deal with having both parents gone.

It's so hard. I can't even describe it. I don't know if I'll ever be "fully ok" again. I guess we will see. I am just managing day by day.

I just don't know if I'll ever feel whole and complete again. Death is so hard to deal with. Well anyways enough of that for now, thank you for reading and have an awesome day :)

Getting my stress under control :)

As I mentioned in a previous post, I've been SUPER Stressed out for quite a while. Today I feel a lot better.

I feel like I'm finally getting my stress dealt with. Stress is bad. When you finally get those relaxing moments it's like nothing else.

I'm really thankful. You just have to find things you really enjoy doing, that helps with stress a lot. On another note, the weekend is coming and I'm super excited about it.

I love weekends. It's my favorite time. Everything is so happy and good on the weekend. I woke up this morning in a really good mood. Had some coffee and hopped on the computer.

Uploaded a quick little YouTube video. I hope today is an awesome day. If you're reading this, hope you have an awesome day too :)